Can anyone help

Maybe someone out there has experienced the same thing that I have. First I'm not one to drag my feet. On the other hand sometimes I wish I were. Being stubborn and hardheaded did not help any in the situation either. I believe that marriage is the unity I think that when people get married they become one and they share their life together. Since I have been married I think things have gotten harder for me. First my husband has a very nice used car. He told me that he would give it to me because he was looking for a small truck and he didn't need two vehicles. The problem was he wasn't looking at all, he just said he was looking. He likes to drag his feet on everything. In the meantime I have no car, no way to get around anywhere, and it was like he wanted me to depend on him. I've learned in the past that you never count or depend on anyone except yourself. So being hardheaded I started looking for my own car. I wanted to show him that I didn't need to depend or count on him for anything. I found one that I thought was a good deal. I bought it from an auto auction so I did not get to test the waters first. After I paid all the money for it they brought it out and it was mine. At first I was very excited. I thought all it needed was a new battery. This car has been my nightmare. After I got the battery and started up I soon realized that the good deal was a lemon. With all my money gone I realized that the car needed a new engine. My husband and I have been fighting about this car ever since I got it. I think because he felt in control and could determine when I could have a vehicle, and I trumped him and got the car anyway without him checking it out. I haven't told him about the engine. I know I'm not going to tell him about the engine. If I told him about the engine I would never hear the end of it. So now I'm in the same situation as before with no car and now no money.